Pain Paean

Listen to Marvin read Pain Paean

What role, I wonder,
In his grand design
Did god envision
For arthritis?

I’m good with glorious
Sunsets, with hummingbirds
And butterflies—but what’s the point
Of my swollen knee,
My wretched ankle,
And, now, the ache
Afflicting
My right hand’s
Most important finger?

And when that dying Pope
Joyously projected
His mortal agony
So we could watch
Him suffer
As his savior did,
What, exactly, was
The point?

What father
Would look on, benign,
While his only son
Hung, bleeding,
Between
Two tortured thieves?

How do we explain
Those flagellants—
Hindus, Moslems, Christians, Jews—
Who, desperate for salvation,
Flay themselves,
Tear their flesh,
And beat their breasts?

What god
(To win a bet!)
Would watch
While Satan
First, slaughtered
Job’s sons and daughters,
Then, sickened him
With stinking pus-filled sores?

Smug priests
And ministers
With pinched smiles,
Address
Conundrums such as these.

They tell us that Jesus
Had to die a painful
Bloody
Death
To redeem us from our sins.
But never quite
Explain
Why our redemption’s price
Is his blood and
Pain.

One Psalm asserts
“The fear of the lord
Is the beginning of wisdom!”
Boy oh boy
They got that right.

Remember Achan,
Joshua’s Jericho soldier?
During the battle,
He came upon some gold,
Silver, and a charming
Embroidered cloth.
What he didn’t do
Was hand it over
To the priests.
For this modest greed,
Joshua, like some Mafia capo,
Executed him,
His sons and daughters,
His oxen, asses, sheep
(Though what they did
We never learn).

They died, devastated
By stones and fire.
Jeez! The congregation
Even burned
The tent they shared.

But that was then.
I’m more concerned
About my golden years,
Pinched by arthritis,
Painted with psoriasis—
My years of itch and hobble.
Like Job, I want my day
In court!
Achan paid
Because he skimmed some loot,
But, dammit,
I want to know
What sin, what blame
Convinced that terrifying
Vengeful god
To strike me lame!
                 (3/19/07)

Posted in Aging, Pain, Religion

My Younger Son—1976

   For D.B.K

My younger son grew up a country-length
Away, but spent his summers here with us.
One year, caught teaching abroad, we, on strength
Of friendship, asked, ”Would it be too much fuss

For you to pick up Dan, board him a week
While we wended home through Kabul, Delhi,
Tokyo?”  Pleasantly, our friends agreed.
When we arrived, those good folks asked if we

Understood how well our Dan had mastered
The keyboard?  Bemused, we thought, with brows creased,
At thirteen, he’d manage some halting craft,
Some three chord pops, or maybe Fur Elyse.

We listened, overwhelmed, and almost freaked
As he banged out Beethoven’s Pathetique
                                            (3/10/07)

Posted in Family

My Older Son

   For D.J.K.
                             I

My older son, spawn of academics,
Bore, no doubt, an extra burden—parents
Enthralled by education, splenetic
At anything less than best.  Tough to fare

Well in such a household.  One day I drove
Past his schoolyard.  The children screamed about
As children do, but he sat by himself
Halfway up the monkey bars, thus flouting

All the learnéd theorists.  My heart hurt
To see him there, alone.  I told myself
That differing was good, a child with quirks,
Superior to the herd, glowed with wealth

Of character.  That thought allayed my fears,
But, somehow, could not stop my sudden tears.
                                                     (2/21/07) 

                                  II

Three days of silence followed this dredged mem-
ory.  Then his reply revealed the cracks
In such stark shards—recalled his many friends:
“Ed and Charlie, my best school yard buds back

Then, not to mention that weirdo kid we
Hung out with most days, while we imagined
[He recalled], in the linked interstices
Of our school yard fence, strange, new, magical

Alien worlds.  And how could you forget
My well-regarded prowess at sockball?
How could you forget that, despite the stress
Of parental demands, I was, next Fall,

Elected President (despite your aches!)
Of 6th grade Student Council for chrissakes!”
                               (3/3/07)

                                   III

 “On the other hand,” as some wag once ob-
served, “the fingers are different.”  David’s
In particular.  In those days, we fobbed
Him off on a nanny—the jobs we craved

Consumed us.  And when he caught the mumps, we
Bought, to divert him from his fevered brow
And swollen neck, a phono record.  How
He loved it—Alvin and the Chipmunks—he

Listened incessantly!  He was just four;
He learned the words; he sucked that music in.
Though unused, we had a piano then,
And, one day, as we entered through our door,

We heard him playing “Alvin’s Song”—at four!
Stunned, widened, shining eyes displayed our awe.
                                   (3/2/07)

Posted in Family

Income Taxes

Boy oh boy oh boy, our Revenue Code—
Monstrous volume, diabolically
Designed—Satanic obfuscations goad
Us to confront (upset and colicky)

Our civic duty to a government
That feeds on taxes.  Will some Deity,
Please, deliver us!  Let us now repent!
Convert from worshipful complicity!

This holy Code, morphing every year,
Directs the powerful to hidden doors,
Creates an industry with rich careers
In brothels housing hordes of tax-prep whores.

The corporations game the system, dance
To priv’leged tunes and lyrical deceit.
What Business needs magically enchants
Congressfolks; moneyed lobbyists compete

To woo their favor.  The rest of us do
What we can (fearfully avoiding fraud),
By twisting this, inflating that.  We croon
Our mantra: Though not impeccably true,
Nonetheless, we’ll risk, since we thought of it,
Deducting it until we’re audited!
                                          (2/27/07)

Posted in Taxes

My Father

My father’s bleak shtetl,1 west of Crackow,
Welcomed a rich Jewish philanthropist,
Who asked around, and offered to endow
One bright schoolboy, provide a scholarship

For Crackow’s gymnasium.2  Shloime Klotz,
The teacher said, deserved such high regard!
But, firm, his mother demurred!  “A Shagetz3
You’ll become,” she cried, “You’ll forget your God,

Lose faith, eat pigs.  Better you stay with me.”
Whereupon I gently teased: “Religion
Stunted you, put you in the I.L.G.
W.U.4  Denied education,

You became a wage slave, talent wasted.”
“No, no,” he laughed.  “Think! Think! I would have stayed,
Done well, and—when Poland suffered its crash—
Become a dustpan-full of Auschwitz ash.”
                                                       (2/19/07)

1 A small Jewish village.
2 In some European countries, a university prep school.
3 A mildly derisive term for a non-Jew.
4 The International Ladies Garment Workers Union.  My father supported our family by sewing lady’s skirts in a New York sweatshop.

Posted in Family, Luck

English 360—The Bible as Literature (3 credits)

I love to teach this course, and honestly
Announce I am an atheist.  Though faith
Was welcome, fundamentalists would hate
The class, resent the scholarship, should flee
To nurturing churches where they would be free
To believe that serpents spoke, that man’s fate
Was just a whim of some dark creator.
Some thanked me and left.  Others stayed to see—

Among them one smart-mouthed clown, smirking, spoke:
“Day four first sees the sun, how can we cred
Those earlier eves and morns?  Just seeking
Truth.”  I replied, embellishing his joke:
“Here’s a better question: when Yaweh said
‘Let there be light!’ to whom was he speaking?”
                                                       (2/14/07)

Posted in Religion